By: Nedynia H. Martinez
THIS BLOG IS DEDICATED TO ALL THE LIVES LOST TO CANCER OF ALL KINDS. THIS SICKNESS TAKES NO SHORTS. IT BREAKS DOWN FAMILIES, CRUSHES FUTURES AND DEVESTATES ALL IN ITS PATH! IT AFFECTS MILLIONS AND HAS NO INTENTION OF SLOWING DOWN. RATHER THEN JUST TALK ABOUT WHAT CANCER TAKES I DECIDED TO TRY TO GIVE BACK A LITTLE GLIMPSE OF HOPE, WHEN IT SEEMS THAT NONE EXISTS! NHM
I've heard so many stories, I've watched so many documentaries, I've done research, and nothing I find gives me the answers as to why Cancer is so powerful. I speak to so many people about love and hope while surrounded by a hopeless world. More and more tragedy ensues our world and we have little to hope for and no answers as to why the people we love most lose the battle against such a vicious enemy.
I've watched loved ones speak of what they've lost, of what they fear and mostly of what they can't control. I don't have all the answers but there are some things I know not to be true. And it is my hope that as you read you find a small piece of hope!
I hear so many people in time of grieving say WHY DOES GOD do or take certain people. I am a mother of a very fragile child and I've been told that same hopeless and cruel comment. At first I raged against God, how could he put me through so much pain, my daughter never had Cancer but she suffers do to her brain injuries at birth. I have cursed God I have begged for an answer as to why those doctors chose my baby. Why did God allow such a tragedy? It was'nt until I lost total hope that God reintroduced himself to me.
As human beings we want someone to blame. To cope we create fairytales and sometimes even lies. We've been told for generations that God robs us of our loved ones for a greater purpose, when the bible clearly states the opposite. God is love, he hurts when we hurt. If we are created in his image and we would do anything to help those we love, how do we assume that God would'nt do the same? God does not commit the pain, tragedy or sickness. Satan is the God of this world that is why we feel pain, get sick, lose those we love most, and in time God gives us the promise to one day see them again! Our loved ones don't look upon us and watch us miss them, or watch us mourn, God lets them rest peacefully, without pain, sadness or those things we can't control.
Do these facts change or mend a broken heart, sometimes no, nothing does! We live hurting and wondering. There are times I feel like Im done fighting, like my heart is so heavy and those moments I realize that my baby is here! And somewhere in this world is a mom that just lost a child. That in itself breaks me down, and as I write tears burn my cheeks and I ask God, Please be with those mother's Tonight!
Give them the clarity you have given me, And even when I do not deserve your mercy You carry me when my legs have lost the ability to take another step, I beg you to carry them also!
Cancer can rob people of many things, even the most precious thing of all which is living, but one thing you never lose is your memory of love. Even if all you had was a short moment you experienced the greatest love with your child or loved one. To say surviving such a loss is easy would be unthinkable, And I can't imagine the strength it takes to continue living after losing a child, only God knows how much I fear ever losing my daughter, I can admit to the world that I fear that more than losing my own life, and I'd give up my life for my baby to experience a healthy normal life! I tell you all I have is my hope & my faith, that God will keep every promise which is why I have survived mentally, emotionally and physically!
So Dear Cancer,
You can take many things but you can't have it all! You can't steal hope, you can't change God's plan. And even when you strike with full force, one day you will lose your strength, you will cease to exist. One day every parent who has wrestled with your devestation will rise with those they've lost and you will be powerless. Your memory will fade when a cure is found! When God gives his word you can rest assure he will keep it!
MAY YOU ALL UNDERSTAND THAT I SPEAK FROM MY HEART. I CAN NOT IMAGINE HOW PAINFUL THIS KIND OF LOSS COULD BE. BUT I BEG OF YOU, CONTINUE TO BE HOPEFUL, CONTINUE TO BE STRONG, IN A SHORT TIME DEVESTATION WILL BE NO MORE, DEATH WILL BE NOMORE! EVEN IF WE'VE NEVER MET MY HEART CRIES FOR YOU! BE WELL!
GOD BLESS!
NEDYNIA H. MARTINEZ
THIS BLOG IS DEDICATED TO ALL THE LIVES LOST TO CANCER OF ALL KINDS. THIS SICKNESS TAKES NO SHORTS. IT BREAKS DOWN FAMILIES, CRUSHES FUTURES AND DEVESTATES ALL IN ITS PATH! IT AFFECTS MILLIONS AND HAS NO INTENTION OF SLOWING DOWN. RATHER THEN JUST TALK ABOUT WHAT CANCER TAKES I DECIDED TO TRY TO GIVE BACK A LITTLE GLIMPSE OF HOPE, WHEN IT SEEMS THAT NONE EXISTS! NHM
I've heard so many stories, I've watched so many documentaries, I've done research, and nothing I find gives me the answers as to why Cancer is so powerful. I speak to so many people about love and hope while surrounded by a hopeless world. More and more tragedy ensues our world and we have little to hope for and no answers as to why the people we love most lose the battle against such a vicious enemy.
I've watched loved ones speak of what they've lost, of what they fear and mostly of what they can't control. I don't have all the answers but there are some things I know not to be true. And it is my hope that as you read you find a small piece of hope!
I hear so many people in time of grieving say WHY DOES GOD do or take certain people. I am a mother of a very fragile child and I've been told that same hopeless and cruel comment. At first I raged against God, how could he put me through so much pain, my daughter never had Cancer but she suffers do to her brain injuries at birth. I have cursed God I have begged for an answer as to why those doctors chose my baby. Why did God allow such a tragedy? It was'nt until I lost total hope that God reintroduced himself to me.
As human beings we want someone to blame. To cope we create fairytales and sometimes even lies. We've been told for generations that God robs us of our loved ones for a greater purpose, when the bible clearly states the opposite. God is love, he hurts when we hurt. If we are created in his image and we would do anything to help those we love, how do we assume that God would'nt do the same? God does not commit the pain, tragedy or sickness. Satan is the God of this world that is why we feel pain, get sick, lose those we love most, and in time God gives us the promise to one day see them again! Our loved ones don't look upon us and watch us miss them, or watch us mourn, God lets them rest peacefully, without pain, sadness or those things we can't control.
Do these facts change or mend a broken heart, sometimes no, nothing does! We live hurting and wondering. There are times I feel like Im done fighting, like my heart is so heavy and those moments I realize that my baby is here! And somewhere in this world is a mom that just lost a child. That in itself breaks me down, and as I write tears burn my cheeks and I ask God, Please be with those mother's Tonight!
Give them the clarity you have given me, And even when I do not deserve your mercy You carry me when my legs have lost the ability to take another step, I beg you to carry them also!
Cancer can rob people of many things, even the most precious thing of all which is living, but one thing you never lose is your memory of love. Even if all you had was a short moment you experienced the greatest love with your child or loved one. To say surviving such a loss is easy would be unthinkable, And I can't imagine the strength it takes to continue living after losing a child, only God knows how much I fear ever losing my daughter, I can admit to the world that I fear that more than losing my own life, and I'd give up my life for my baby to experience a healthy normal life! I tell you all I have is my hope & my faith, that God will keep every promise which is why I have survived mentally, emotionally and physically!
So Dear Cancer,
You can take many things but you can't have it all! You can't steal hope, you can't change God's plan. And even when you strike with full force, one day you will lose your strength, you will cease to exist. One day every parent who has wrestled with your devestation will rise with those they've lost and you will be powerless. Your memory will fade when a cure is found! When God gives his word you can rest assure he will keep it!
MAY YOU ALL UNDERSTAND THAT I SPEAK FROM MY HEART. I CAN NOT IMAGINE HOW PAINFUL THIS KIND OF LOSS COULD BE. BUT I BEG OF YOU, CONTINUE TO BE HOPEFUL, CONTINUE TO BE STRONG, IN A SHORT TIME DEVESTATION WILL BE NO MORE, DEATH WILL BE NOMORE! EVEN IF WE'VE NEVER MET MY HEART CRIES FOR YOU! BE WELL!
GOD BLESS!
NEDYNIA H. MARTINEZ
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