Becoming Me By: NHM aka Nadynezworld

Becoming Me

By: NHM aka Nadynezworld

In a world where conformity and redundancy are prevalent, quite overplayed, I choose to be different not because I'm better more so because I don't want to be similar! I want to be amazing in my own right not for my attire or what I financially acquire,

 simply because my heart is genuine! I want to be loved sincerely and love honestly.

 I don't want to be judged for my error because I am humanly flawed and perfection can not be attained! I am not immune to error as a matter of fact I am prone to it! I can only be the me I know how to be and if You can't except that I am becoming a better version of me than you can't have me in your life! I need to have the right to speak my truth without fear, I need and desire a circle that embraces my inability to be anything less than myself and if we are never on the same page then it's crucial to read another book! 

Many of us assume that we are surrounded by those who appreciate and accept that we will make numerous mistakes because they themselves have the same flaw but truth be told most people find solice in the failures of others, and they judge not necessarily because there bad more so because it helps them avoid acceptance of there own failures! People use the friend title too freely, a friend lives life proving there loyalty and even though there incapable of perfection its the effort put forth that makes them valuable for your life. I'm learning daily that friends are only truly friends when there of like minds and like beliefs. 

My life has become quite trying lately, so many changes and hurdles and yet I am surviving and doing the best that I can, I am becoming the me I'm supposed to be not the me everybody wants me to be. I have many huge decisions to make, many career changes, life changes and challenges that I've co dependently ignored through time, but today is a new day and although I am not fearless I am up for the challenge, because becoming me is a task no one can do except me! 

I am strong even when I am broken, I am good even if I make bad choices, I am beautiful even if I'm not a size 2, I am great even if I'm prone to error, I can win even if I lose at times! I am slowly becoming the me the world may hate to see but it's OK because I deserve happiness as does every one else! I'm better than what I've been and my blindfold is off, I see the world for what it is! They will hate you for your differences, they will mock you for your similarities, they will tare you down until there is nothing left, but Standing tall will kill them all, there is nothing worse than the forceful silence of a hate that is so loud! Judge me if you so choose but I choose to become a better me and eliminate all people places and things from my life that don't encourage my growth and love me enough to patiently except that

 I AM NOT YOUR CREATION, I AM MY OWN CREATIVE BEING! I AM NOT OWNED I AM HUMAN I HAVE FEELINGS I HAVE PAIN I HAVE MANY THINGS I NEED TO FIX WITHIN MYSELF, THAT I KNOW BUT I DON'T NEED REMINDERS, I NEED SUPPORTERS! ANYTHING LESS GOOD BYE NHM 

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