I wish I could forget NHM

I wish I could Forget NHM

@Nadynezworld

I remember holding you while you slept,

 silent as I wept,

 I always knew this was temporary quite as kept.

I hid my Love displayed my loyalty but I always knew we'd end up separately.

We spared the details, 

played the game and stayed the same.

I sit here waiting for a whisper in the wind to designate whats within.

 Nothing leads me to you. 

Love me the way you did once upon a dream,

 that kind of love that burst at the seams. 

Take me from the nightmare of dissonance and cure my love intolerance. 

Where are you?

Do you feel commiseration or enjoy the separation I wonder?

In the shadows do you see the form of what once existed,

or is your heart so frozen you resist even looking.

I've been here screaming in this self reflective glass

 how did goodbye happen so fast. 

Best friends, the laughter, the joy was real,

side by side 

night after night

a connection so splendid, a trust so candid 

a goodbye so rancid left to rot

was it real or not?

So many broken promises,

so many new faces,

you've traveled many places

 but the road leads you to the same position you were in before me.

As you live without me similar to a wayward child, 

do you ever allow your mind to wander and slow dance with your images of me,

and how wonderful it use to be.

does any dream pertain to we 

or do you still selfishly only live For yourself,

many things probably haven't changed. 

You stood by my side when for you it was right 

a convenience that pushed you ahead 

no explanation so it's whats left unsaid that hurts most.

Why does breaking a spirit exist behind a trusted kiss?

Lead me to forgiveness 

allow me to breath, tell me its my heart you didn't choose to deceive. 

I've held my breath since the moment you left and this is whats left.

Questions I can't answer, holes I can not fill

I loved you then and I love you still.

I wish I could forget the anguish and paint a new picture of us

 but as I stare at a blank canvas I cant even give a title.

what remained is a heart filled with shame, to have fallen for a game.

I realized Our destiny wasn't aligned

 so our hearts were never meant to collide, 

true love can't penetrate an armor of pride.

Who was I kidding who knew hope was so cruel

who knew this day I'd still battle the fact that 

I Wish I could Forget You.

I Cant Its simply impossible, I can't. 

NHM