WHY NOT ME
By: Nadynezworld NHM Inc.
All I remember for sure was my mom yelling OH MY GOD It's Girl. Which completely stunned me because my entire pregnancy I was told I was having a boy. I even had it confirmed with an amniocentesis which claims to be 99% accurate. Usually you hear your baby cry upon coming into the world, your told the babies sex and then they proceed to clean the baby up and hand it to you. They congratulate you and that day becomes the memory that changes your life.
God I wish that was my kind of happy ending or remotely my experience. I wish this part of the story didn't always bring me all these tears, all these painful memories revisited are so hard to explain. This is when my real life began, My introduction to devastation, anger, confusion all made there debut before I could celebrate the birth of my little princess.
This wasn't someones movie or someones fictional literature this was the best day of my life turned into my worst nightmare. I was only 16 a baby myself with no concept of what lied before me. I was 16 when I experienced my biggest trial my biggest heartbreak, but I assure you there were many more to come. I would love to fabricate the facts and say that it was the happiest day of my life, in many ways it could have been.
I truly loved my child, I grew to love her more than I could ever love myself but on this day Something was taken from me, her and I were robbed. Those doctors stole our lives from us, they stole the I love you's she was supposed to say. They stole the time outs she'd never get, they took our artwork and shattered it into a million pieces then told me Somehow I had to find a way to piece them together.
I was chosen to take care of her in ways no mother expects. We all expect diaper changes and terrible twos, but this, this was something totally different but I was chosen to be her mommy. I was given the privilege to spend life with her, to be her protector, and even if it wasn't what some call normal to us it was all we had. I knew the challenges but it was never an option to walk away, so that day I turned into a woman, that day I became a mother, a nurse, a doctor, a body language reader, and a best friend.
I didn't hear her cry but her eyes opened to look at mommy and that moment I knew my life would never be the same, it is that moment I fell so deep in love that the trials and tribulations meant nothing and instead of crying in pain asking God Why Me, I truly comprehended the strength it took to ask Why Not Me! I was not sure of anything except that I would love her unconditionally So Why Not Me?!
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