Darkest Hour By: NHM

DARKEST HOUR BY: NHM AKA NADYNEZWORLD

The world expects perfection out of you because no matter how much they lie and say they love you just the way you are is as fast as they will put you down and talk bad about you when you make a mistake! They will all smile and cheer you on your error when it behooves them but in the event that your error makes them a little more perfect then you they will attack you with unjust judgement to bury you when you were already down White flag in hand! NHM 

PERSONAL NOTE 

I've learned first hand what its like to be expected to save the world when you yourself need saving. Every phone call is about someone else while your drowning and trying to prove that your head is still above water. In 3 days it's the anniversary of my daughters passing, I've had so many fake, using abusing people in my life, one bad choice after the other and people think because you have a great career and money in the bank that you are not human! I am human oh so very human! I've had my heart broken to pieces, I nearly lost my will to live 3 years ago but I'm here because I fight every day to be better! Through my pain I find the strength to endure. I have an amazing heart and I give everything to those I love but sometimes I need freedom from the ideal many have bestowed upon me! 

No one is immune to life's woes. Many of us claim to be real as they come but in the dark, in our private time whether it be by action or thought none of us are truly 100% real. We wear pretentious smiles, hold on to dead weight, love the wrong people, except the things we despise only to avoid the work necessary to free ourselves from conformity. Were puppets to expectancy and we get up every day routinely to follow the worlds perception of adulthood. We choose what we don't want, we take pretty pictures that we filter to look perfected, we tell the world our relationships are perfect today horrible tomorrow and just like that we are all the same. 

We are driven by responsibility and would never openly admit when its too much because the reveal of our truth is too hard to bare and no one will like that picture, you can't filter and adjust the color on that level of imperfection. We know everyones watching and waiting for us to admit that our social media glitter is a facade. Our fancy attire and our crafty quotes don't dilute our darkest hour! The one in which the truths you've hidden are now the reality that has broken the ideal of you! The errors you've chosen to live out are the pangs of those you wish you didn't hurt but the freedom of truth is like nothing else. Living A lie is so painful not just to you but to those you lie too to avoid inevitable pain! 

Our heads are above the water but every now and then the small waves choke us and the fear of drowning is evident in our movement, sometimes keeping us so still we are imprisoned by the slightest thought of change. No I don't mean to be selfish today, no I don't mean to focus on just me this moment but I've given the world every other moment. I've worn my pain my heart and my trust on my sleeve for every one to get there piece, now it's my time, and there is only very little left for me to work with. So I am taking whats left and becoming slightly entitled to happiness.

I am a work in progress, I am human I feel pain and I feel let down, let down by a world of people just like me who claim to be real as can be but when the curtain is drawn the true identities behind the mask are ugly! None of us are 100 and only someone real can keep it that real! Do not promise the world perfection do not give your all because we all need something to hold onto, the world and the people in it will strip you down to bare bone all while having a sincere smile on there face, and when that last wave comes every body you said no too will be the hands you see pushing you down into the abyss! Be smart in choosing your circle, be honest, never betray anyone, if you can not be loyal to them discharge them from your surroundings! You can not control the fake people you encounter but you can surely control becoming fake! Be loyal, be kind be loving, do not judge unless you've been blessed with perfection. Do not be selfish, self assuming or callus, be grateful, be eternally grateful! Do not steal, do not hurt purposely, be strong, be trustworthy and mostly be a person that keeps there word! BE A PERSON THAT VALUES THERE WORD AND THEIR PROMISES BECAUSE WITHOUT THAT QUALITY WE WILL ALWAYS LIVE PRISONER TO OUR DARKEST HOUR! 

YOURS LITERALLY AND FUNDAMENTALLY 

NHM AKA NADYNEZWORLD

@NHMBLOGGER