HEAVY HEART
BY NHM AKA NADYNEZWORLD
@NHMBLOGGER
Silence is deafening it's all around me, I tried to ignore it but it controls me now. I would've given it all to continue to ignore what is so evident but my intelligence and intuition have yelled at me in such a tone that silence could not block out the sound no longer! I feared this moment when my heart no longer could carry this weight, the moment when my heart would shed love like snakes skin and all love was lost within! I feared this day for those who need my love because my heart is depleted and love don't live here, it has moved with no forwarding address, and the place where it once placed everything is empty! The walls are bare, for you painted in despair but you've become too heavy a load to carry, goodbye amazing goodbye love, goodbye! NHM
Is there perfect love in an Imperfect world, can there be a connection so amazing that the world around you doesn't exist, yes there is. It's not love that hurts, it's people claiming to love you that decide to hurt you! For some people to love is as easy as it is to breath, but for others love is so difficult to trust they'd rather not breath then to dare except it. I thought I knew which kind I was but maybe there is a rare kind, one that people don't readily see. The type that love hard but can walk away from it faster than they can blink. Are people with such tendencies selfish or self assuming, are they callus and brutal?
In life you don't really get too many great things, the way this system is set up you mostly get darkness and disappointment, you get wolves in sheep's clothing, you get pretense where there should be truth. People will take without giving, leave without thinking and neglect where they should give all attention. People will become complacent and stop working for something because once certain words are uttered they believe a connection is fail proof, but the victims of such circumstance know that once you lose what you thought you'd always have the heart break is so intense, the guilt is so immense that recovery takes a lifetime and truly the wounds never heal!
You go into a shoe store and you try on 50 pairs of shoes, you can buy many pairs but there always that one pair that fit so perfectly you can't seem to let them go. They are so comfortable and you have them for so long, then one day the sole breaks and they must be either be repaired or discarded, many will opt to discard because finding a place to repair them, then waiting and hoping they will still be perfect is too tedious, boy does it hurt to throw them away but they do and they miss them forever, after the garbage is picked up and you know there is no longer an option to go retrieve them the impact is strong but you try to avoid any remembrance and then one day your walking down the street and see someone wearing them, you gasp for air and wonder are those my shoes? Are those the shoes I discarded on someone Else's feet, making them smile, walk so comfortably and happy? Every memory you made in those shoes comes back and sudden sadness comes upon you, the type you really cant ignore. You suddenly think of all the shoes you own and know they don't measure up and you get angry. You go online to find a new pair only to find that they've been discontinued, no longer made and regret sets in. Damn I should've taken the time to repair them, I shouldn't have outwore them. All this emotion over a pair of shoes, shoes you can't replace or repurchase. This analogy is closest to my heart, because uncomfortable feet stagnate you, who can walk in pain?
When something presents itself to you and it feels amazing, it is in fact amazing, not just by words but feeling don't discard it! Don't outwear it! One day you will walk down the street and see it making someone as happy as it once made you and it will devastate you, you can have a million things a million opportunities but the one you forfeit knowing it is perfect is the one that haunts you forever! That perfect feeling doesn't last without effort and when its gone it will weigh your heart down.
A heavy heart weighs more then many can carry so be sure that when your heart begins to feel what it never has that you cherish it because once the garbage is removed and the ability to retrieve it no longer exist, life will never be the same! Duplication of amazing does not exist!
YOURS LITERALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY,
NHM AKA NADYNEZWORLD
@NHMBLOGGER
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